Yes, I worked six days straight last week and when I got off on Saturday; I knew I had lots of things in store for me. I say that today knowing it all worked out fine this weekend but, who am I kidding… I had not real plans. I ended up going to my SIL and BIL house to chill with the family. My MIL was there... She has been there on and off for the past four to five months helping take care of my only niece.

As we always do we eat crabs and had pizza. So much for that diet I was doing so well. I still haven’t drunk a soda in three weeks. I’m very excited about that. I digress…we laugh and take turns telling crazy stories or even sightings of ridiculous things.

After talking to my SIL, she is considering (for real this time) moving to NC. She has three beautiful children. NC is a great place to raise a family. The living is wonderful and the areas are serine. This brings me back to wanting a family to be in my house and loving it. Only a few people know what is going on in my life and it’s so hard to really deal with….Especially after chilling all day with my niece.

So watching the children run and play… Making her smile and jump up and down but as always this one thing runs through my mind. I want Maurice to be here. Then I think why does this feeling come often these days. When I’m having a great time, I get that feeling like I’m missing something in my life. I didn’t cry this time; I went to the kitchen and made some cookies (request from my BIL). “Hey Minnie I think its cookie and Ice Cream time” his exact words. Maybe he saw the look on my face, maybe he knew I was going to another place and he wanted to bring me back to reality or maybe he just wanted me to just make the cookies so he didn’t have to do it. Needless to say making the cookies and seeing the smiles on their faces; because the cookies were hot with a scoop of Ice Cream on top, made me smile. It also gave me hope. Hope that the smallest thing can change your life and most of the time the change isn’t bad. My prayer for a baby will be answered.

It is funny because thinking about making the cookies reminded me of a good friend. It feels like a dream now but that one night was so fun. I can tell you, that smile never came off my face that evening. Cookie dough in the bucket, French Vanilla Breyers Ice Cream and Rickey Gervais show, who could ask for more... We laughed and became our own house comedians, no need for standing ovations we made sure we both got satisfaction that night. This feeling came over me last night to have this person near me. I needed that reassurance that things will be okay. He does that for me…. Even when I’m not always happy with what has become of me, he makes me feel like; I will overcome all things regardless of all my drama and insecurities.

This weekend was a great one. Being able to learn about myself or bring a piece of someone else’s world into my own, it was an awesome time spent with family. What’s life without a little regret, happiness, and sadness? What makes it all worth wild is that regardless, the people who care about you are around and make your life rich with love.
I’m getting excited about the weekends to come, something amazing always happens….