Fallen Angel

Fallen angel Falling from the sky and never being able to return
How can this happen
What mistakes have they made that he doesn't want them back
Angels are supposed to be perfect
Maybe in his eyes
The wings are white, without a blemish
The clothes are pure without signs of dirt
Can they not be forgiven
Can they not grow
You must be indefectible
The wings make you faultless
When you fall
No need to get up
Your knees are dirty, the wings are not pure
Your heart is no longer impeccable
Fall hard when they hit the ground
They've lost it all
Until
That light shines
and an arm is extended
The fingers seem to have a glow
Hope
maybe
Hope
that they will once again be perfect and forgiveness comes their way
Hope
that light will still follow them when it's dark around them
That the goodness they see in people will always be with them
Fallen angels
fall hard
But they become flourishing beautiful flying angels once again
That hand that reached out for them never lost trust or faith
Flying angels
Fallen angels
Flying angles
Fallen angles
Flying angles

Landon Pigg - Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop

Everything I have said and will always say. I love you!

Because

My eyes open and I see you
I see us
The expression on your face when I say something silly
The laugh that fills a room
The smile that can bring a smile to every face in the immediate area
The bridge of the nose that is perfect
The feeling of peace
Serenity
Joy
Nature and
Culture
The scent that lingers for days after
The blanket that keeps us warm at night,
Who am I kidding; it keeps us warm all times of the day
Even in the summer
The unique style from the shirt to the shoes
The intelligence you show in every situation
The caring soul who
Loves other first
Share when is needed
And makes the special someone feel extra confident in herself
Keep being the Magic and not the station.

JUST

As I sit here in the darkness of a silent room, I’m thinking. Let me be very truthful, I cannot stop thinking. My brain runs morning, noon, and night. Brain power is what I’m going to call it and it’s a great attribute.

I’m enjoyed what I had. I keep living in that time and my brain will not allow the past to be just that, the past. I’m tired of crying. I want to be happy. Can I be honest and say… I know I will never be happy without that magic in my life. I often put my foot in my mouth but I’m just being truthful with my feelings. I feel like I should stop being such a girl and keep things to myself. Going back down that road will put me back at square one, noting being able to express myself.

I found this awesome thing called love some years ago and it’s amazing. It’s walk along the water in a historic district; eat great lobster pasta with old time flair and chase after a truck for an hour with no avail, it’s astounding. It has been new, fresh and scary in ten million ways.

A quick message to my brain…

Please don’t scare off the magic. I need, want and deserve the sparks and the big booms. The sound that comes after the flash of lights. I talk to the father we share, I give thanks for many gifts. I ask for blessings in so many areas.
Thank you for always believing in me and allowing me to strive for greatness.

A big...

It happens once or twice a month, I need to sit back and reflect on my past. Change characteristics of myself for the best outcome in the future.

Doing this today due to a comment and I realized that I don’t have many issues with self. Most of my issues are of someone else and I take them on as if I need to change me. What I have learned in the past two or three years is that, I have to be ecstatic to be me (Thelma). NO one will make me love me. NO one will experience my past and live my present and dream of my future.

You walk in this world alone. Mistakes made alone and consequences are received solo. Whatever changes I feel is necessary should be all my own. I love me more than I ever have in life and I will not allow anyone to steal that from me. Like every person on earth I have made some bad decision. Should I be crucified because of these/those inadequacies….

My development as a woman will come every second, minute, hour, day, week, month and year. My exposure in life will allow me self reflect. I will mature and enlighten myself.

-Where there is great love, there are always miracles.- Willa Cather

Is it possible...

Addicted to being ignorant and not wanting a positive change
Mad at the world because of your choices
Out of the box with your reason and life lessons
To bad we should be closer without the drama
Have to get through all the hurt you have caused
Even after all that I have done, nothing will make you love me more
Respect goes a long way and we both need to give and receive it
Sometimes silence is golden and I have to practice this more, with you
Love for one another is evident, we just love very hard
Overwhelmed by the strained relationship
Vain I can be but I’m always able to say “I love you” without hearing it back
Every girl needs the love of her Mother.

Things mommy do or say…..

Why do I inspect the boys poop every time they go? Some point soon I need to stop because Miles is starting to smell like Jojo.

Whenever I smell poop, I say “do you have poopy in your diappy for mommy?”
Both the boys just smile and laugh at me. They know I have a job ahead of me trying to change that mess.