Baby Shower!!

I was nervous about the outcome due to my sister and cousins helping getting it together, but it all went well. Take a look....

What a day...(yesterday)

Can you say I woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning! I was being such a spoiled bitch and wanted answers for everything. I took time to call a friend and talked his head off for an hour. He was sweet and listened to most of my rants but added his own thoughts of my crazy disposition.

He placed me on hold as he does often and never came back to the phone… I hung up thinking about the email that was sent out so early or late in the evening yesterday. I remembered I never got an answer to my questions and realized, whenever I ask any questions they are somewhat ignored on certain subjects. This irritates the hell out of me.

Can you make someone answer all your questions and feel that they are telling you the absolute truth?
I don’t have trust issues, my issues have always been LOVE. I love people regardless of how they treat me.

Baby or bust…

Back pains and headaches.. Contractions maybe? I don’t know but the past few days have been interesting to say the least. I can’t sleep comfortable due to the boys growing in my ever so small abdomen, the back pain is new and unpredictable. It’s more like contractions in my back, that come and go. Then the pain in my lower stomach. Mekhi is sitting very low and I can feel in moving around in my pelvic area, it feels so strange. Miles on the other hand is positioned in the top of my abdomen, when he moves my breast moves. I find it so funny to see the boob jump out of nowhere.

Baby shower this Saturday and I’m hoping I do not go into labor. But I do feel like something is going to happen pretty soon. Doctors appointment tomorrow and I will have the doctor check me to be sure all is well.

The day ended great. I just rested in bed , oh and my Roxy is feeling better too.

Music to Minnie's Ears

Lonely

..I’m so lonely. Why can’t people understand that I need folks around. I need to feel loved and need to have the companionship. I have a huge bed and sleep alone most of the time. Come Home! Drive South! Let’s find you a job in the city so you can be here and not there. My dryer works here, my hands do great taking care of you, so COME HOME! Adding Damask wallpaper to the office for the dark green smoke room look. I know what you like and what you really want. COME HOME, because I’m lonely when your not laying next to me. I’m spoiled but I don’t seem to get my way in this situation. Big girls don’t cry… well I’m a little lady right now.

Baby News

We are going to the doctor twice a week now. Most visits are pretty uneventful and others are full days on my back, which is not good for me. NST’s (Non Stress Test) are fun… I get to hear the babies heart beats and hear them moving and kicking. I’m also doing Umbilical Doppler’s twice a week as well. A umbilical Doppler is a sonogram of the blood flow from the placenta through the umbilical cord to the baby. This is to make sure the baby/babies are getting the proper blood flow and nutrition. So far so good on both the NST’s and Doppler’s.



As you saw in previous post the nursery is completed. The neighbors have come over to see the room and they all loved it. I know my boys are going to enjoy this room for a long time.

The biggest baby news right now is the Baby Shower. I’m ecstatic about this event! J Ha! Let me stop frontin’ I’m worried as hell about this shower. Parties are my expertise and not planning this one is driving me nuts. I love my sister and my cousin-in-law, but I’m uneasy about this going perfect. My friend told me to relax and allow myself to have a great time, it’s all about having fun and enjoying all the people coming out to celebrate with me. He is always right (I will never tell him that) and I tend to listen to him. Saturday will be an adventure for sure.

The boys have been moving like crazy and getting bigger everyday. I will be 30 weeks pregnant this Friday and I’m in disbelief, it seems like I was just taking pregnancy test and getting my first ultrasound. I think back to telling people-it has to be twins because I’m just way to tired. This has been a crazy journey but all will be well and worth-it in just a few weeks. I love them so much already.

Roxy

My beautiful 4 year old spoiled Rottweiler woke up this morning not feeling to good. Anyone that knows me, know how much I love my animals. I have owned Roxy since she was 8 weeks old. Let’s run down memory lane.

I built a house in NC, decided it was too big for me to be alone and I opted for dogs to protect me in this country town. A German Shepherd Dog (Jojo) and a Rottweiler (Roxy). When I went to the breeder to pick out the Rottie, I saw the most loveable face ever. She was a fat little thing with her ears flopped. Okay, sure they all look alike, kinda, when they are 8 weeks old but she was special. I ended up picking her up and guess what!!!??? She urinated on me, a sign that she was mine. She picked me I didn’t pick her. And now almost five years later she is still with me and I love her so much.

So, what’s going on with my baby now… She seems to be having some joint pain in her right hip. She usually would jump on the bed with no problem or walk down/up the stairs without an issue. She is now making a painful squeal when doing either of these things.

She was given medication earlier today to help with the pain. It makes me so sad to see my fur baby in so much pain. I don’t know what is causing this pain and I’m going nuts trying to help her. Getting on the bed has been a task today, I had to actually pick her up and help her on the bed. Now, we all know I’m pregnant with twins so picking up a 110lb Rottweiler is not what I’m supposed to be doing, but to see that face of hers in agony was heart stopping.

I will give her a few days, if she is not feeling better than we are headed to the Vet. My baby girl might need to get an X-Ray. I will spend my last dime on my children human and canine.

Rest well my sweet baby and I hope you are feeling so much better in the morning. Momma loves you.

Nursery Update

Paint.. check
Chair rail.. Check
Custom Painting (Mekhi)...Check
Furniture... Check check check

To-do list:
put up wall decal
book ends
finish custom painting for Miles
Wicker baskets for the changing table

Freedom

Is it possible to run from your problems? If so, I’m getting in the car right now and drive until I run out of gas. I would like to be so far away from this place right now. When one thing goes wrong, everything seems to fall right behind it. How does one handle so many trails and tribulations?

Prayer!

A dear friend of mine had an issue, he prayed and got an answer. May not have been the answer he was looking for but he accepted this guidance. Is it that easy? I don’t believe anything is easy, we just have to work very hard at it and do what is best for us as we follow the answers giving to us. I’m losing a battle on all sides of my life, but I get up and smile everyday, knowing that all will change very soon.

I pray even when I feel it’s fallen on death ears, I pray about things that others might think are extremely crazy, I pray because I’m blessed in so many ways in my life and we should always say thank you. I will continue to pray and know its written in a much bigger book than any of us has ever read. No mistakes have ever been made on HIS end.

I guess I’m not running after all. I know who shines a light on me up at my darkest times. Who wipe my tears when no one is around. I’m staying put, right here.