Could....

…this be it!
The end of it all
Can my heart handle it?
Can my brain comprehend this?

What happens when you wake up and everything is completely different from the day before? Not just the way the sun shines in the window or the time it breaks the horizon, but you emotional state. You want to be the best person you can be in life and treat others like you want to be treated…But can love allow you to walk away. The love for someone that knows you more than most. The love you never want to let go but may have too.
How do you deal? NO phone calls, No emails, No seeing one another when someone visits and life is completely separated. Can you do it?
Just talking about the impossible make you cry. Thinking about your life without that love makes you want to run away-far away. Can you wake up or go to sleep without that person on your mind? How does this affect your current relationship? We just want to be happy but what is happiness without one another?

I know I’m just rambling with a bunch of questions, but I don’t know the answer to any of these questions. I love him and that love will not allow me to walk away without being pushed. I hate the fact that I might not hear that voice again, never see that blog again, never read an email again, and never see him again. I’m crying…. My heart is weeping. I know what my answers will be after a Prayer. I knew what it should have been months ago. We ignore what’s written on the walls just so we can have what we want.

I can’t walk away. I don’t know how. I just can’t figure it out. We need your help Lord, Weneed you to guide us both to the right path. Hold our hand so we can do this with your will. Give me the answer to this situation I know only you had your hands in. The reason why we fell in love in the first place, there has to be a lesson to be learned, we both are willing to be your students.

If you don’t get this post or if it just doesn’t make sense, it’s cool. That means it’s not for you to get. My mind is running in so many directions right now. I’m not a stranger to being lost in my life. Everyday I have new heartache. I will pray on a few things with one of those being to find my happiness, the happiness really meant for me.

I’m going back to crying because a part of my world is about to crumble like Blue Cheese.

Music to Minnie's Ears

Donell Jones-You Know That I Love You

Gestational Diabetes

I have been hit with the ultimate bug during this pregnancy. It seems that I have Gestational Diabetes and need to consume a pill (Glyburide) every night to control the levels of my blood sugar over night.

What is Gestational Diabetes....

Pregnant women who have never had diabetes before but who have high blood sugar (glucose) levels during pregnancy are said to have gestational diabetes. Gestational diabetes affects about 4% of all pregnant women - about 135,000 cases of gestational diabetes in the United States each year.

We don't know what causes gestational diabetes, but we have some clues. The placenta supports the baby as it grows. Hormones from the placenta help the baby develop. But these hormones also block the action of the mother's insulin in her body. This problem is called insulin resistance. Insulin resistance makes it hard for the mother's body to use insulin. She may need up to three times as much insulin.

Gestational diabetes starts when your body is not able to make and use all the insulin it needs for pregnancy. Without enough insulin, glucose cannot leave the blood and be changed to energy. Glucose builds up in the blood to high levels. This is called hyperglycemia


I have a to follow a strict diet to maintain my blood sugar. Back to my child hood I go... We didn't eat to many processed foods in my early years. No sugary cereals, no kool aid, no white bread but we did have humus, blue chips, honey (natural sugar), whole wheat bread and natural peanut butter. Here is a pic of what breakfast looks like now days.

Ahead of the Game

Before planning to have children, I have always wanted to be sure I was well prepared for them. Having twins makes planning even more significant. What have I arranged.... 529 Plans and don't let me forget the Savings Bonds (A friend reminded me of these). I figured if I put $500 a month into each of the boys college fund we would have around $108K in 18 years. That should be a good start if they decide to go to a school like Duke or UNC. I want my boys to be successful and have every chance in life and being prepared for their future is a must. We always want our children to be fly with clothing and the fresh hair cut/style but most urban mothers forget about the college fund or just teaching their children about finances all together. I'm correcting all the wrongs and unknowns my mother forgot with me.

Both of my boys will have it all (not just the lastest gear).
Mekhi Anthony Mungo
Miles Joseph Mungo


I should mention that in the picture (which is a section of their hutch) both the Silver Piggy banks are just about full with silver coin and green cash. They are on their way. Can't wait to take them to the Bank to open their first accounts.

Really?!?!

WTF!!! I almost died at the pump. I have owned my truck for just about five years, I have never paid this much for fuel. When I was done and looked at the price, I wanted to tell the gas station attendent to siphon the gas out of my tank. LOL
It's a good thing I'm restricted to bed rest. Drive to the doctor office and back to the house. Save on gas and miles.