What's Going On....

I have been a hot mess this past week. I left the DMV area on Friday heading to NC feeling good, had a great weekend. I had pancakes the entire weekend (the only real craving I had thus far) and enjoyed my bed and home. The dogs loved me being there too. My Roxy knows I’m pregnant. I was laying in my bed Friday night, she jumped in the bed and pushed the blanket back off my tummy. When I realized what she was doing she sniffed my tummy and laid flat on me, to say I know momma, I know I have a little bother and sister on the way, time to protect you. She stayed in my room just about the entire time unless Jojo was there. Just a wonderful time at home with no drama.

So what happened after this relaxing weekend? All hell seemed to break loose, when I got back to DC. I woke up Monday morning with the intention to go to work and get back on my regular work schedule, well that didn’t happen. I woke up Monday with spotting and cramping, more complications with my pregnancy. I called the Doctor and ended up being put on bed rest for a week, OMG a WEEK!! I gave the Doctor the nastiest look. I can’t sit in the house for a week, I have a job, I have ADHD, I have responsibilities and sitting still will not help me. When I came to my senses, I thought this is for my babies and I have to make sure their okay. So, momma have been home since Monday.

It seems whenever the Docs put me on bed rest I get really sick. The past four days I have not been able to eat anything without getting sick. I’ve had a sandwich, crackers, soups, cereal, fruit, and toast. Nothing has helped me. The babies are not feeling food right now but momma is so hungry. I’m still having my cravings of things I see on TV and can’t eat it. I want pizza and will not be able to eat it and be happy after. I’m sure this time will past and I’m so looking forward to it. I’m going to make up for all the time I have been sick.

I have up coming doctors appointments on the 25th and the Maternal Fetal Medicine on the 29th. This will determine when I will get my Cerclage. I’m scared they will put me on bed rest very early and I will be sitting for three or four months. I also have big decisions to make about work and being here in MD. I guess I can make those decisions after the 29th.

Whew!! I finally had energy to type a blog. Thank you Lord!!! I’m blessed even with all this sickness. I’m alive and I will have two healthy babies running in my house in a few months. Can’t wait.

The happenings of twin pregnancy.

SN: It’s great to have wonderful people in your life.

Never Change..

When I'm at work and I get this blank look on my face, I'm thinking about you. When I'm relaxing before bed at night I'm thinking about you. When I think about my future I always think about you. This post/song is for you; the person who is always on my mind even when I have a million things going on. The person who makes me smile when I'm sad, the person who says "I Love You" and my heart still skips a beat. He is me and I am him.


Think about you (Luther Vandross)

So close to paradise,
but closer than I should be
It's like I'm along for the ride,
it happened unexpectedly
Promised myself that I wouldn't ever love again
But you make me feel something,
my mind's always on you

I was standing in the rain (I thought about you)
I was riding on the train (I thought about you)
Feeling high like I seem to do
Every time I think about you
Saw two lovers start to kiss (I thought about you)
Had to hold back the tears (I thought about you)
Other girls no more exist
All because I think about you

Nothing seems to help,
I don't even know myself
I'm trying not to think of you,
but a heart does what it wants to do
Pass you by,
see you smile and I must admit I get
So emotional,
I think I'm falling for you

Bought a pillow for my room (I thought about you)
Heard Alicia sing a tune (I thought about you)
It sends my rocket to the moon
Every time I think about you
Right from this heart of mine (I thought about you)
I wanted you every time (I thought about you)
What I feel is so divine
And it's all because I think about you

But I'm constantly reminded
Reminded that you're only someone who I'd like to know
You don't know me,
you're my private fantasy
You're with me, constantly in my mind

Had a lovely day today (I thought about you)
Wasn't hard to get through (I thought about you)
Seems to happen easily
Every time I think about you
Took a walk with myself (I thought about you)
Wish it could've been with you (I thought about you)
But every star in the sky came out for me
And it's all because I think about you