It was all a dream about the mistress (late night writing after a dream)

I typed this up at 3am to remember the dream..


She lived in the same apartment building and got the call to come see him. She packed a bag and walked up the three flights of stairs to his apartment. As always he couldn’t keep his hands off of her, she was hot fire and couldn’t resist the temptation of being with him. His hands touching her back and side was driving her crazy. The kiss they share was so powerful she forgot he wasn’t her husband or boyfriend. They started and ended on the sofa….. She was getting it so good as he was enjoying the moment. Different positions and his voice telling her how much he loved her. That drove her wild, even if she told him she doesn’t enjoy having her lovers expressing their love during sex.

She gets up a bit after they are done and looks out the window, I mean he is married and she is the Mistress. Have to be sure the wife or anyone is not coming home or even in the building. She was a paranoid because she knew of his wife and spoke with her before. Yeah, that’s a bit trashy but she said she loves this man and couldn’t stop. As she looked out the window; she notice a blue Smartcar pulling up with an occupant that looks like his wife. She asked him (he is sitting on the floor in front of the sofa, his favorite spot) what kind of car does your wifey drive.. He started to be a smart ass and just gave her the shrug of the shoulders, as if the wife was no where near the place. She started to get dress since she was so uncomfortable, and just in case. As she was about to put her shirt on the door opened… It was her (the wife). What she said when she walked in was “Oh really”. He turned his entire body to the back of the sofa as if he wasn’t in the room. The ladies didn’t fight, the wife actually walked down to the mistress house and they talked.

What the mistress figured out that day was, he is happy with the wife but wants the mistress for other things. He wasn’t willing to tell the wife he loved the mistress and wanted to be with her. Isn’t that how it goes everyday in the Daytime Stories or on the Lifetime channel. Lets be for real… The mistress loves him and wouldn’t be able to leave him alone. She feel like he is the right person for this man and will not rest until he really sees that she is the one and he is happiest with her. Or is he…..

It never turns our the way you really want ladies. Leave the married men alone. If you didn’t know he was married prior to falling in love, quickly fall out of love with him when you find out. It will never work in your favor. Another women’s husband will never be your treasure, there is a reason why you are with him while she is away. Self respect is what the mistress is missing and she has to regain it one way or another. Look in the mirror it might help (think of yourself in that situation).

This was a dream I had tonight, and I couldn’t go back to sleep.

Pregnancy Update

How far along? I’m 15 weeks today. I have a miscarriage at 16 weeks last year so I’m praying every night that this year will be different. I’m just waiting to get week 16 over with.

Total weight gain? I have actually only gained two pounds in almost 4 months. My doctor told me that I will pack on the pounds later on in this twin pregnancy… Not to happy about that.

Maternity clothes? Oh baby yes! I have been in maternity clothes since I was 8 weeks along. I have to start wearing more of my “M” clothes, with a twin pregnancy my tummy will not fit in most singleton pregnancy “M” clothes. I guess I will be in sweats and t-shirts for the last 3 months.

Sleep? Well…This one is tricky. I have been sleeping a lot, of course I’m having twins. I wake up every night around 3 or 4am, which is not fun because nothing is on the television. The babies go from one side to another which I believe is what makes me wake up a the weirdest times. Stay still at night please. LOL I love you two already.

Movement? I’m starting to feel the babies move more and more every day. It’s the flutters not really kicks or punches. It feels very weird but very reassuring. The movement makes me smile every time no matter what time it is.

Food Craving? I haven’t had any food cravings at all lately, but in the first month and half, I wanted pancakes or French toast. I just eat when I’m hungry and I have to eat every two hours. These babies are hungry at all times, even at 3am in the morning. The reason I’m not sure why I haven’t gained weight yet. Could be what I have been eating and my portions. Either way I’m excited… Don’t need to be any bigger.

Gender? Not sure what sex Baby A or B are. What I hope for is a boy and girl. I may be able to find out on the 30th, which is my next appointment.

What I miss? I miss working everyday. I miss having my freedom of going out when I feel like it. I miss being independent and having energy to do anything. I miss my staff and folks in DC. I miss lots of things but can give it all up to have healthy babies in April/May.

What I am looking forward to? I’m looking forward to loving two beings and showing them what real love is. Looking forward to decorating the nursery and loving every minute of the process. I’m looking forward to seeing my Mother, God-Mother and Aunt happy for their first grandchildren (My Aunt is like another Mother to me). I’m looking forward to the crying babies in the house and the dogs protecting us to no end. I’m also looking forward to Malik making bottles if he can handle it in a timely manor.

Embarrassing Moment? I haven’t had any embarrassing moments as of yet. I haven’t been vomiting in public or anything.

What I can’t stand? I get irritated about everything now days. It doesn’t take much to get me upset or angry. I get heated really fast. I better be having a boy and a girl, because if its two girls I will just go crazy. I can not deal with two of me.

Message to baby? We are patiently waiting your arrival. I love you already and can’t stop talking to you every morning and night. We are going to be blessed to have you two as our children. Love you always.

Nursery Furniture

Seriously!!! Bed Rest!!!

This is what my bedrest consists of…


Get 8 to 10 hours of sleep at night: This is easier said then done. I go to sleep all through the day but when its time to sleep at night I’m right there. Well, why am I getting up at 3 or 4 in the morning and can not go back to sleep.. The babies are killing me on this note. I go to sleep in the most comfortable position, and wake up with my tummy hurting and needing to find another comfortable position. I believe they are running me crazy already, and they are not here as of yet. Babies please let momma get some sleep, she needs it!!

Rest most of the day. Lie on your left side as much as possible: I do rest most of the day, its not an options. They put me right to sleep with no issue. Now the lying on my side part is what is hard. As I said before I can go to sleep on one side and wake up in the middle of the night hurting, because the babies decided they want to be on that side. I have to have a very good talk with them, its not going to work. Maybe I will call their father LOL.

You may get up to go to the bathroom and to take a shower: I would hope I can do this. I mean I have not life outside of keeping myself clean so the bathroom will be my favorite place in the house. I will do my hair, play in the make-up, and paint my nails.

You will need help with housekeeping, laundry, and grocery shopping: This would be a big help. Not having to cook or do much cleaning around the house is great. Everyone knows I have two dogs and I usually have to vacuum once a day to keep the hair from piling up. I have my mother and MIL here with me to help. An extra pair of hands never hurt.

Do not do any physical sports and exercises including walking: As busy as I am, I can’t do anything but sit in the bed. I’m watching tv, playing the Wii, PSP, and DS. I’m not happy about this. I’m having twins, I need to stay active so I don’t gain to much weight and I need to keep the little muscle I have. Walking though!!! Walking! I can’t walk are we serious? Damnit, how am I going to go to Target or shop for the babies… I guess internet shopping is my thing from now on. I want to walk my dogs and enjoy the weather before it gets really cold. This sucks but anything for the babies!

If you work outside the home, you will need to stop working and be on sick leave: Never thought I would be home at three months pregnant. I had plans to continue to work until January atleast. I’m lost for words as to how I’m home so soon. I mean I know why but dang, this is going to be challenging for me. I’m a work-aholic. I miss my staff and my branch . I have to find some really good hobbies, knitting, sewing, and maybe paint something. We will see how this plays out.

This is what my bedrest looks like and I have two people in this house to watch me full time. They might get on my last nerve sooner than I expect. But as I have been saying anything for my babies. It will all be better when I know what sex the babies are. I will be killing the check cards/credit cards mine and his.

Replacement

The phone no longer rings
The door bell never makes a sound
The verbal affection stops
The love seems so distant

When you tell someone how much you care and nothing is given in return
When they look at you and they see someone else
When the spark is gone
When the personal information is no longer being shared
When she feels lonely

Can we one day be as we once were
Will you be apart of the family
Will you love them as if they were you own
Can she come back and feel like it will all be okay
Being happy is what everyone wants

Don’t be the replacement
Don’t be a stand-in
You are the team and no one can run your playbook
Love yourself and they will love you back (maybe)

She became a replacement/stand-in