Me plus One

So, it has started and I’m so excited but scared.


Let’s run it back from the last time…

Morning sickness from hell at 9 or 10 weeks, all fried food made me sick, NO EGGS (well sunny side up eggs and we all know that’s how I like my em), the smell of sausage cooking made me want to go hide in my closet, horrible acne, and putting on weight. The biggest thing is… I wasn’t normal when it came to the cravings. I craved whatever I saw on TV, nothing I thought I would want. I used to have this thing where I told my husband that he would have to run to Philly to get me a cheesesteak. Yeah, had no craving for a famous Philly Cheesesteak. Oh and after wanting everything on TV, I got sick eating it. And, I wore the Sea sick wrist bands 24-7.

Things I miss from the first time…

My Roxy absolutely loved me, that dog wouldn’t leave my side. When I got up at 1 AM she got up to walk with me to the restroom. She even laid next to the tub until I was done in the toilet room. Jojo stayed on the lookout for intruders to the house. I swear no one that I didn’t know could get in that house without getting killed by my fur babies. They were very protective and I’m looking forward to that again.

I miss the baby bump. I used to go to bed and rub my own belly every night . It felt so good to know I was caring for a baby. Sounds crazy but even early on, I would talk to him and tell him how much I loved him, already. I’m so looking forward to that feeling again, that love I felt within and the joy it gave my soul. I’m looking forward to becoming a mother and given my child the love a mother should. Showing him or her what a stress free life is for a child, not allowing anyone to take their innocents away to early. Putting my mark on the world as a wonderful mother is all I want. Raising well rounded children is my dream.

So where am I now….

I’m a little over a week out, from having that feeling again. The sickness, the joy, the happiness and the fullness of my soul. I’m ready for it all. The sleepless nights, the crying baby because he/she is hungry, trying to breast feed, protecting the baby from the harsh world, changing diapers, buying baby clothes, furniture, and painting a room that has been waiting for its occupant for four years. I’m ready.

The process to this event has been daunting. I have had so many emotions, some of my own and others from the high level of estrogen I have to intake. I have been wearing four estrogen patches for the past nine days and you can tell how it has affected me on a daily basis. I do remember one thing that I enjoyed while pregnant last time, my sex drive was out of control. It was very fun for me though LOL.

I went to the doctor the other day and my E2 levels and uterine lining looks great. I have another appointment on the 25th of this month and we are off to the races at that point. Baby will be with mommy on the 1st with no delay. I will not buy anything for the first 5 or 6 months (due to what happen last time). But I will pray and pray hard every day/night, asking the Lord to keep my gift safe and unharmed while in the safest place.

Once I’m blessed with this gift, I will have to get a cerclage done at like 10 weeks. This is to hold the baby in so I wouldn’t have another miscarriage. I have weak cervix and we have to keep baby safe and sound for nine months.

I will say I’m worried that all the people that I have helped and loved over the years will turn their backs on me and baby. I feel like all that I have done for people doesn’t need to be returned, but showing me love is all I ask. I’m afraid I will be alone with no one to love me. This could really be the high estrogen levels. I have been very emotional lately. I need love…I really need love.
A baby to come, a party to be thrown and life to nourish. I’m so proud of me for taking these steps to take control of my life.

Oh and shhhh because no one in my family knows about this yet. I will not tell anyone until about 5 or 6 months. Just in time for someone to buy my $800 crib. LMAO

Trip to solitude

I planned this trip knowing a vacation was needed. So what better to do then go to the beach and enjoy a full spa.... Not the fake spa on the beach front, but a full service spa, where I can get a body scrub, body wrap, stone massage or just a basic body massage.

These are picture that show how I enjoyed the time away from my real world and freedom from work. Take this journey with me because I want to go back.




I was on my "White Girl" driving to the beach. This position is very comfortable for driving long distances.



This was my first stop when I got on the boardwalk. OMG!!! I love Rita's but just having Water Ice on the beach was amazing.




The manicured landscape was just outstanding. Just looking at the beautiful grounds made me feel like I was Alice in Wonderland. Come fall in the hole with me.....



A very beautiful place to have a wedding. I was so excited to see all the Koi fish in this huge pond, they came right to where ever I was standing. Apparently someone has been feeding them.



This is Crash from "Finding Nemo" He was so photogenic, he knew when to do what for the best shots. "Hey Dude"!!! LOL




I wanted a Hermit crab so bad, they were in every shop. They smelled horrible but they look so cute to have at home. I always thought my pets (Roxy and Jojo) could use a pet of their own. Crazy I know...


These next few photos are of the gorgeous beach I had a chance to finally walk on. It was so great to just enjoy the sand in my toes.



















My last stop while on this trip... The VA Aquarium was awsome. Not as big as DC but its a good size.

The Other Sugar

Panera…
French Onion soup in a bread bowl
Panini’s
Chips (kettle)
Lemonade or Strawberry Smoothie

First date or meeting, Brownie and drinks
Somewhere in this conversation a war came up
Hip-Hop was definitely in the initial meeting,
At one point her brownie became a steak
Could she handle it?

In the house…
Watching TV
Discussing 215 or 212
Fingers through hair
Kisses on forehead
Belly being rubbed
Ladies love….
Sitting close on the sofa with arm around each other
Possible shed in the back
Shower head to match
Dogs are at peace
Babies on the way (four patches)
The comfort of home

Out and about..
Acting up in the aisles of a grocery store
Sly comments to shock each other
Thumbs up for the great movie
Talking to strangers
Laughter at all times, ever at the moments you would never expect
Chilling with a new bunch of friends (Fanta and bread… Country as all hell)
Talking about the same things but never really want to leave each others presence
Johnnie Walker Red Label (gone completely gone)
C-Town needs a new resident

Emails
Text
Dreams
The look..
All it takes to know that the brown sugar is the best sugar.

Go Phillies!!!!

In One Year Time...

I have built a great relationship with four great people at work. We have to take a survey every so often about the job and how happy you are. One of the question on this survey is “do you have a best friend at work?”. I can say without a doubt that I have four best friends at work.

A little over a year ago I was taking a leap of faith, left my house to move back to DC to become a manager of a new bank branch. I haven’t regret my decision one bit. I have missed my home but when you have staff like mine, they bring you back to reality of how GREAT the branch is doing and making you proud to say you’re their manager.

A few days ago my region had an award ceremony and we took the cake. Each one of my staff members took home an award and our branch name was called for just about ever category. When I tell you that I have made the ultimate sacrifice to come to DC, leave my life behind in NC and made this into the best job experience I have ever had. When we left for the award ceremony, we had one Globe trophy to take back and left the event that night with 13 awards and two Globe trophies to put in my branch.

It feels even better to know that it was not just one of my staff members, but all of them shined and made me very proud. People at other tables started to call us out as the winner of the category because we continued to win 1st or 2nd place for everything.

As I’m about to embark on my personal life goals, I can say that I have accomplished what no one really thought we could in the hood. I’m proud to say that no matter where you are, you can be the best. Hard work and dedication is what makes you the best.