I woke up this morning to an email… My heart has told me its time to move forward. Things happen in life for one reason or another, so all that has happened to me in the past two years, will have meaning soon.
I have become free of my paper bond, my heart bond and my love bond. I’m starting my life over never to look back. The sky is clear and no rain in sight. If I cry myself to sleep at night, it’s only to bear with all that life has thrust upon me. Sometimes the weight is too heavy for me to carry on my shoulders. This doesn’t mean that I’m weak as a person, or I can not handle life… What it means is that I’m human and my heart pumps blood just like the next person. That my heart hurts just like any other woman. I love hard but love genuinely. I’m faithful to my heart.
I have cared and carried people my entire life. I have supported those who have never supported me. In all the hard work I have put in over the past 27 years, I pride myself in never letting people get to me or break my spirit. But for some reason I let this one person break through my mold, solid center block mold. I gave, opened up, did things I wouldn’t do for anyone else on this earth and I have been stepped on and forgotten, talked about just about disrespected. Why do I continue to love so much? How do I stop?
I don’t think I will ever be able to stop loving, but my tactics will be a bit different. Guard my heart forever…even if that means alone and childless, so be it.
Don’t love me and then leave me. Don’t pretend to care when you don’t. Don’t limit my love for you or yours for me. I need people around me that will always be with me and never push me to the side for anything. I need people that will support my ever effort to become a better person around me. Remember how you treat someone will always be with them….
Love those who deserve so much more. Love those who have loved so much.
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